Last Revised August 2014
Music is how I worship best. I bought my first acoustic guitar in the dark period after my first breakup, and even through the awkward I-can't-really-play-anything-yet-because-I'm-still-learning-basic-chords phase, my guitar time became my closest connection with God.
My friend Adam gave me a couple free lessons to help me get started, and that gave me the confidence I needed to learn more on my own. My goal (which I achieved) was to become good enough that I could play in the Selah band, our Sunday night worship group at St. Olaf, before I graduated.
I wrote my first song as part of a final class project my junior year of college, and have been writing [on and off] ever since. Also while in college, I was blessed with opportunities to help lead worship gatherings at FCA and Thursday Night Bible Study, and, after graduation, for five months at an Assemblies of God church in Northfield, Minnesota.
Present day, I play once a month in the band at Jacob's Well, and once a month mix sound. I'm also in a perpetual state of working on my first CD... this project has already been several years in the making, and life's busy-ness keeps distracting me from finding time to work on it.
This particular section of my website is small for now. As I have time (read: maybe two or three years down the road), perhaps I'll add to it. Nevertheless, music is such an integral part of who I am, I would have been remiss not to include this page.
Written Decembr 25, 2009
I can’t imagine what it’s like running down those golden streets
Seeing saints on either side of me applauding all the way
And I can’t imagine what it’s like finally crossing the finish line
Entering those pearly gates just in time for Christmastime
But I know that you’re okay
Cause you’re in heaven now
In heaven now
Seeing Jesus now
Dancing with angels now
I can’t imagine life without you in this world with me
But your life still goes on living inside our memories
And somehow we will find our way through the darkness through the rain
Cause you’re never really far away, you’re still watching over me
And that’s why... I know we’ll be okay
Cause you’re in heaven now
In heaven now
Seeing Jesus now
Dancing with angels now
Written March 2008, revised May 2012
Life eats away
Brings you to your knees
Crying out to a god
Can he even hear you speak?
Life has never seemed quite fair
With all this suffering everywhere
Nothing fills that void inside
Ready to give up on your prayer
And I don't know what to say
I don't know how to make things better
But I won’t leave you now
‘Cause I’m not gonna leave you on your own
Even if all I can do… is pray
Uncertain times
Our world’s changed far too quickly
It’s hard to keep up
You feel like you’ve lost control
These aren’t the plans you planned
When you thought about your life
And since you cannot see the future
You worry you’re unprepared
And I don't know what to say
I don't know how to make things better
But I won’t leave you now
‘Cause I’m not gonna leave you on your own
Even if all I can do… is pray
But I want you to know
That God still loves you
And God is still near
No matter how crushing
This world comes to bear
And God is still watching
Over you from above
Cause God, He still loves you
And He's sharing in your tears
I don't know what to say
There's nothing I can do
But I promise to pray
I promise to pray
And I promise I still love you